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i'm embarrassed that i like this song so much.
i won't stop singing along with it,
and it's been on repeat for more than an hour...
it's crazy full of autotone,
but...
jingle jingle jingle

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girphant
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and finally some links for the clubs i'm in

what should i do?

if it's america's next top petite model,
shouldn't a petite model win?

ugh.
i've been so miserable lately.
not only miserable, but confused.
i just don't know what i want in life anymore.
i remember when i was younger...
i had everything set out as to how i was going to live my life.
and now.
it's all gone down the drain.
and to make matters worse,
nothing seems to really
motivate me.
so even if i was really,
you know,
all for trying to find out what i want in life,
it's likely not to occur,
because i get so bored so easily now.

really.
all i want to do now is just sleep.
and sleep.

okay guys i have something important to tell you.
and yes i am aware,
i'm likely the only one who reads my blogs on da,
or anywhere.
but i needed to write, neh, type this down.
just to make it all the more real.
you know what i mean?
i don't know.
but anyway, back to the point of this blog.
i've made a decision.
i am switching majors.
and switching universities.
i am going to do what i'm good at,
and well, what makes me happy.
i am going to go into art.
sure i'm not sure of the specifics yet.
but i realized,
after a long painful look at myself.
that i am absolutely miserable with the major i am in now.
i hate it,
and well.
i've been so miserable, that.
i've been thinking some very
Stupid ideas as to how i'm going to go on with life..
i think you can elaborate.
anyway. i've decided that this is where i should go.
and i'm going to do it.
sure i keep making excuses like,
oh if i switch universities now, i'll never graduate,
i'll keep postponing everything.
but the thing is.
i'm not postponing myself from being happy.
and that's what i'm doing right now.
so yeah, i'm going into art,
and hopefully getting into an art school.
i've applied to ones that are nearby and well,
i'm gonna see where it takes me.
even if i make no money,
and have to live with my parents longer than i anticipated.
as long as i am happy,
this is A-Okay with me.

i don't know what made me really realize this,
but i think this individual had something to with it.
alexander rybak.
(you have no idea who he is?
Check him out! he is awesome.)
sure i only listen to his music, and laugh at his videos.
but since i was introduced to this awesome artist.
my life hasn't been so. horrible.
and not only has he helped me out of this,
dump i've been in.
but the people around me,
the people i see around me who are just.
so positive with what they are doing,
it really helped me to realize that,
i want to be happy to.
and well.
this is getting awfully long.
and i still have a paper due tomorrow.
and two exams on the top of that too.
yeah.

but?
i am happy.
so...
expect some art to be up in the next few months